Learn from Scratch

We face situations where we are completely lost because we know nothing about them. Then 'know-how' becomes extremely desirable.

I have jumped into this new business, unaware of how deep it is. So I feel overwhelmed by the demands. I have no way to get control of the situation.

Mentors are useful. They are more experienced and know what should be tackled and how to tackle it. I am really thankful of the kind instructors. They have showed me ways short and effective.

As I develop, I become more conscious of my strengths and problems and know better about the past. To face new and tough situations, to learn to cope with them, to get experience and to conquer the old self and the difficulties are all about life value. When looking back into the innocent or ignorant days, one should feel satisfied after all the silly and discouraging trials.

Go get it.

I tell myself to learn more. After all, the accumulation and utility of knowledge and intelligence is the nature of growth.

I write as my thoughts go. Just as it is. Hope it is not too confusing.

Away for a While

I have been absent from this space for a while....because I am busy with my life or my work, or rather I am too lazy.

I have been away from my friends for a while as well and the reason is the same.

I don't say it, but I am really guilty. I have dreamed about my friends and the scences that when I meet them, I would be really ashamed. But still I keep myself away from them.

I don't know why. I just want to be along, to be absent from the outside world. I want to be myself, without any outside solid influence on me, especially from those who know me well. Maybe I want to transform, to surprise.

I have been thinking about future. I have experienced well with the old model and convinced the world I have the ability to play such and such roles. But when I am along, I want to show to myself that I can be a completely different person. So I dream, talk to myself in really private languages, watch movies, and read stories. Yes, change and newness are what I desire now.

All my friends must be missing me. Appreciated. I will be there when I am really ready.