Learn from Scratch

We face situations where we are completely lost because we know nothing about them. Then 'know-how' becomes extremely desirable.

I have jumped into this new business, unaware of how deep it is. So I feel overwhelmed by the demands. I have no way to get control of the situation.

Mentors are useful. They are more experienced and know what should be tackled and how to tackle it. I am really thankful of the kind instructors. They have showed me ways short and effective.

As I develop, I become more conscious of my strengths and problems and know better about the past. To face new and tough situations, to learn to cope with them, to get experience and to conquer the old self and the difficulties are all about life value. When looking back into the innocent or ignorant days, one should feel satisfied after all the silly and discouraging trials.

Go get it.

I tell myself to learn more. After all, the accumulation and utility of knowledge and intelligence is the nature of growth.

I write as my thoughts go. Just as it is. Hope it is not too confusing.

Away for a While

I have been absent from this space for a while....because I am busy with my life or my work, or rather I am too lazy.

I have been away from my friends for a while as well and the reason is the same.

I don't say it, but I am really guilty. I have dreamed about my friends and the scences that when I meet them, I would be really ashamed. But still I keep myself away from them.

I don't know why. I just want to be along, to be absent from the outside world. I want to be myself, without any outside solid influence on me, especially from those who know me well. Maybe I want to transform, to surprise.

I have been thinking about future. I have experienced well with the old model and convinced the world I have the ability to play such and such roles. But when I am along, I want to show to myself that I can be a completely different person. So I dream, talk to myself in really private languages, watch movies, and read stories. Yes, change and newness are what I desire now.

All my friends must be missing me. Appreciated. I will be there when I am really ready.

Integrity at Risk

I am working. Very busy. The work itself is a challenge for me, at least at this moment.
I am a person believing in integrity. But when I step to the work, I have to learn to be social, or to be practically end-driven. And when the end is all, everything else would not get a second thought.
Personal efforts count, people skills count, and persistence counts. I haven't made my best because of the hesitance to exchange personal integrity with something else. How to value and keep my integrity becomes a issue ever more important for my future perspective about my career path. And I am wondering about the value of the work.
I suddenly find when writing this message that the best way to keep my integrity and make self-development is that I acquire good people skills, make ever more efforts and be persistent enough. Only in this way can I be able to make job done without bring damage to my integrity.
I remember there is a wise comment of Zhang Juzheng: To use tactics for selfless purposes and make friends not for self benefits. Follow this principle, and I will not be guilty of any blame.

Really love writing something. A great way to collect my thoughts and invite some enlightening ideas.

Lazy? -Never!

To be lazy is the best way of self-destruction.
I shall think, act and rest.
Reluctant to do any of them is bad.
To rest, in particular, is not paid attention to adequately.
I can do something continually for many hours without a break.
That is not wise.
Because it will dumb my mind and damage my health.

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Away

Haven't been here for a while as I have lived lousily during the national holiday and lived nervously in this week.
Finally I am "in the swim" but I still have a lot to learn. The business is tough and needs a lot of creativity and nerves. Hope I can adapt to it in the next week with a complete success.
I have made progress, amazingly. And I am really proud of myself. The initial step is not easy, as always. And I like to walk the hard way. Since life is short and can easily becomes sour and boring, why not take a brand new outlook and a no-way way to leave a unique trail.
I find this business exciting as well. When I get the information, the satisfaction is beyond normal level. I have seen the thrill among others as well. They find the key contact and close the deal, and they just become crazily excited and satisfied and gain more confidence and determination.
I don't know how long I will be in this business. I really want to be somebody in the term's true sense.

Alone

I am alone now. My Girl has returned to her parents', so have my friends. After all, this is a precious union time--a 7-day holiday celebrating the establishment of our People's Republic.
I chose to stay. Though I miss my mother and father badly, I feel obligated to stay here. Father and mother will forgive me.
This month passed rapidly. In hindsight, I had done nothing really worth mentioning. I read a few books, saw a few movies, dealt with a few trivialities. The days seemed to have been idled away.
I spent a quite huge chunk of the time surfing the net, which proved to be an effective way to kill time. I was constantly excited with new foundings: ebooks, videos, tutorials, and motivational bloggs. I really want to immerse myself in them. And they are surely a vast sea for me to swime and I even got drowned sometimes. When reading and surfing, I forgot the meals and sleep, let along the natural call to pee. The act would engender my health!
I still like the feeling of being devoted to the readings, a sense of belonging. But as days pass, I found I didn't afford any more to do that any more. Health complained. My sense of time was even twisted. I began to fear sunshine outside. (Sun cannot throw light into my dorm.)
Once more, I was reminded of the value of plan. I must make a plan to read those countless stuff. Otherwise, I only learn less, not more.

The bold one

This morning I met with one of my dearest friends. He has been a employer for 2.5 years though 1 year younger than me. Comparing to his life, mine has been quite simple.
We became close when we were still high-schoolers. And the time we spent together was mainly during the high school period. He drew me with his boldness which was real recklessness sometimes, and his persistence.
At first, his credit was good but later became quite unsatisfactory. The reason I years later know was because of his family. His father and mother were having a bad time and his father endured physical damage and turned to alcohol. To complement for his bad academic performance, he intended to get more chance to enter a university by practicing running. If he could be accepted as a competent runner, he would get a better chance. I saw how he ran. It was a rather moving scene. He ran without any hint of tiredness like a robot even after several miles.
But he was not lucky and finally accepted by a less known college. During that time, he changed a lot and became more determined in his boldness. He would intrude into the zoo through the wall, an action that would be severely punished if caught.
When he graduated, he got his job by walking into the company and asked for an interview, which was not adopted by most graduates as the way was a rather imprudent one and could readily incur rejections.
He is now confused about his future. He is not so close with his girlfriend. He cannot see his prospect in his current position. He is trying to find a new breakthrough.
Comparing to him, I am more prudent and focused. I told him to be careful in his actions and find his own goal. Other than that, I have noting to say. I love his boldness which has helped him through all the life struggles he had to face personaly. He was not happy with his poor family. But now he is supporting it. He didn't expect to be in his position and now he is not satisfied by the bureacracy there and seeks a change. He had been nice to girlfriend but was treated badly by his girlfriend's parents. Now he is confident to seek their apology.
Whatever his future will be, he certainly would not be willingly constrained by his status quo. His boldness is great weapon. He believes in his ability to make his life right. The miserable past and inequality he endured only fuels his determination to explore a better future.
Good luck.

The Plan

Life with a goal was desirable for some but not for me. I have lived my life with a purpose: self-realization. The purpose was not definite, which can be as bad as none if no passion and enthusiam for expooration is there in me.
In the last month, I am constantly lost in my expoloration. As to my career objective, I have taken that it is best for me to continue in a peopole business, the area aboundant with opportunities and excitements since I will be able to contact different lifestyles. My strength in this business is my communication skills and personality, i.e. I am good at dealing with people, socially and linguistically. I have made a few lifelong friendships. The friends I have are very devoted in me. They know that I am trustworthy and valuable and inspirational, with a great vision in this life. I major in language, which have facilitated my communication process.
Now, I am decided to be more invovled in social activities. And the commnication skills I have always been proud of seem not adequate. I must learn and practice more.
Books are books. What's in them are worthless if not applied in real world. I like philosophy and psycology and novels. Those three terms are interchangeable for me because they are all about human life, which is the ultimate truth of my existence.